For those of you wondering...

Yes! She's right here in Auckland. Her flight was delayed a little bit for some reason though

1 more day!

Can't wait for tomorrow!!

Shannon's finally coming over to Auckland

Hehehehe..

A Chat

We had a chat...

Thank you for taking on my rantings.

Thank you for your patience and love.

I'll work hard to put this thought at rest.

I may not be good at everything, some that you wish for, but I will try my best to see how I can improve with the opportunities I get.

If I can't be better, that's just too bad. I'm pretty sure I have got something else to offer.

hugs.

That 'Perfect' One ?

I wonder what's the right move? Accept the fact that you're bad at somethings but good at others? Or constantly work towards making all your bad skills/characteristics into better ones? But the questions then comes if you decide to change yourself, what if you cannot turn all your bad skills/characteristics into good ones because admit it, there are things that you can't change because you are just plainly bad at it. Do you just accept the fact that you're bad at it and give up?

I couldn't sleep last night. Turning and tossing on my bed, and turning up to church to play keys at the front stage with heavy eyes and pretending to be fully energized. I love to serve so don't get me wrong, but last night a thought that I have been pushing away all these while was bugging me hardout.

I was probably comparing myself again. Looking back last year, I used to be always 'secure' of myself, perhaps I didn't really care what people say cause I couldn't be bothered comparing myself to others as I wasn't in a relationship. Yet, after knowing that I was good at certain things and bad at certain things compared to Ai's previous relationships, I wonder what I should do to end this battling thought. Should I fight on to proof that I am the best among everybody, and change myself and work myself accordingly? or should I just accept the fact that I was not good at those not so good traits and admit my failure.

I know it's not good to compare, as you will never find happiness. What's most important is how God see us individually. After all, we were never perfect in the first place, not always the best in everything. We got our own strengths and weaknesses. Yet, perhaps its my nature that I don't want to admit that I'm bad at something that others were good at in Ai's previous. I want to be that "perfect" person for Ai at least in relative terms. But what if I can never improve something that I am just terrible at. What if I never get the chance to improve on something that I'm bad at. Just accept it and move on? It's just not my nature to admit failure especially to the one I love.

These thoughts have been bugging me. These thoughts might be directed to small little things of my life, but over time as I discover more of my bad traits that has been the previous' strength, it might accumulate more and more. It might be too much for my male ego to handle.

Deep down inside, I want to be that 'perfect' person for her, at least better in everything than her previous has been so that I may please her and at the same time feel good about myself.

But what if I can't ?

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Jesus! 

and a Merry Christmas to you, Ai.

Love both of you heaps.

Jesus' Birthday

Merry Christmas dear!!!

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my Lord Jesus!! =)

Dipose

Today while cleaning up my room and books, I came across a few diaries I used to write in. I read through most of them, and realizing how much I have changed compared to how I was a few years ago. The diary had things such as previous conflicts, thoughts, emotions and crushes. Just reading it all over again reminded me about the person that I once was.Quite funny just reading everything I wrote in those diaries.Reminds you how immature you can be when you were younger.

I also came across some photographs I took many years ago. I decided to dispose some of the "major" ones as I have requested Shannon to dispose some of her "major" ones too. I believe its fair that I do the same

Shannon is still the best! hehehe :)

bored

So today's Christmas Eve. Mum has a lot of parties going on and I'm just tagging along with her LOL. 

For me, the pass few days has been pretty much quite a bum week for me. 

All I've done is eat and play games (and sleep) =p

At times I just feel a little restless, butt itchy.

Can't wait to go on road trips when Shannon is here.

Wohooooo....

Current Distance

we are currently 8266km away!!!! =(
another christmas without Richard around....

but at least i'll be celebrating new year's day, his birthday and my first ever valentines with him =)

My Upcoming Trip to Auckland

Can't wait for my upcoming trip to Auckland!!
Richard has so much planned...
White water rafting
Beach strolling
Parachute festival
North Island Trip
Movies
Paintball
and the list goes on...

Hehe

Can't wait!!!

Thank you so much for planning... I know we have to wait to see if you get the job and when you start work, but i'm still excited about it =)

Medical Check Up

The last hurdle for Richard possible future career.
Lord, i pray that all things goes well and that he does get the job.
Thank You Lord for bringing him so far and i pray that You would continue to be with him..

Just wanna give You all the praise and glory You deserve throughout his job hunt.
Thank You Father for Your providence.. =)

Auckland's Mamak.

Mamak (means night hawker food in Malay) in Dominion Road after attending Joshua's and Sara's Wedding at Tauranga. 

Yea , that's right we weren't invited to the reception, so we thought we had some fun for ourselves. lol.

I wish

Shannon just saw the doctor today which cost her RM400. so expensive! 

Wish I was there to take care of her now, especially since she's home alone and all by herself.

It doesn't feel nice not being able to take care of her. She doesn't have food to eat and needs to cook herself. No car to drive to buy ingredients or buy something decent to eat. If only I was there to help her. sigh..

Secretly took this picture from skype! LOL.

Shannon is Sick

Just got back from Joshua Dennis and Sara Hegan's wedding which was in Tauranga. jauhnya...6 hours drive in total.

Also, Shannon is sick right now... Hope she gets well. Especially for her blocked nose. It has been going on for almost 2 weeks since I was there. Hope she doesn't have sinus like what I used to have >.<

Invensys Rail Interview Day

Ok. My interview for invensys rail was postponed to Thursday 2pm, which is today.

Just wanna thank all my friends and family who have prayed for me and been along this job hunting journey with me. I really appreciate your time and concern.

Today's interview was not bad, though I would have hoped they gave me more questions as I was ready to answer them more. At some point I thought I wanted to cut in and just chuck those polished answers that I have prepared, but then that would be too pathetic as if I was trying to answer things that they didn't ask. Anyhow I tried my best and answer as detail and I could. The outcome was that interviewer thought I did brilliant, just like all the other interviewees in the pass weeks. 

The only bonus I can think of, is that I happen to know a person who works in that company. His name is Stanley. Suprisingly enough, he too have hunted over 120 jobs in the pass and took 15 months before he started his position here. He was my senior at university.

The interview was done in a cafe, all because the office had 1 meeting room which is no vacant. The lady from Brisbane (HR) who was suppose to be part of the panel was absent as she was not free to interview me with the  Manager. Anyhow, this could be a blessing in disguise. Who knows?

I might stand a chance for this job, but I'm not sure how high the chances are. Just like other jobs, we have asked God to close this job shut if its not his will and open it wide if this is where he wants to take me. So even if I might have doubts, I am going to trust Him for something good out of this job hunt. He knows what I'm good at and what i'm bad at, so I'm going to trust Him to find the most appropriate job for me.

Will keep this blog updated once I get my results in 2 days time.

Job interview for Invensys Rail.

It's been a while since a lot has happened the pass 23 days , but its definitely good to be back home to Auckland again.

For the pass weeks I have gone to Baguio for a mission trip, visited Shannon, and got the opportunity to go for a holiday with her parents to Langkawi. It seemed that a lot has happened in just the pass 23 days itself.

Now that I'm back in Auckland, I've got an interview awaiting me. I'm nervous because of the many times that I have already failed the interviews I was offered. Yet I'm hopeful that God has something good in stored for me, could this be it ? A job offer for a world class company for railways signaling? That I get to travel to many places in this position ? I hope it is...because I want this job.

Would definitely require your prayers.

Time Spent with Richard

It has been about 4 days since Richard arrived at the Senai Airport...
All we've done is watch movies, meet friends, eat and eat and eat and erm...EAT!!! LOL
Am enjoying the time spent with him... (and also my family)

Hopefully the time we spend together now will make up for what we didn't have and will not have when i complete and final semester in Monash and come back to Malaysia for 6-8 months...

It's going to be a long long journey apart... I don't know how we are going to pull through but i'm hopeful. We are going to make it!!!

Baguio day 5

Today was probably a relatively relaxing day for me but definitely a day to remember.

We baptized 55 people today in Agoo!  Such a rewarding day especially for Pastor Dwayne and his wife. I believe this is exactly what it means when they say "you reap what you sow"

Assisted with the cameras. Took some nice shots which I'll upload soon once I get the opportunity.

Before baptizing them, the team went around praying for each member individually. It was a good atmosphere seeing the whole village just working in unity as a body of christ for this celebration day. We got some people who were taking care of the kids, some older ladies chopping veges and chicken, and some of the younger ones cooking in the conventional style. Cooking was done with wood and charcoal as they did not have a proper stove. The food that came out still tasted yummy!

Auntie Annie was having some headache as she did not drink enough water. I found out the reason for that was she was afraid of going to the toilet there. I personally went to the toilet and it was just 'breath taking'. Reminded me of toilets I used to have when I was in primary school. Totally disgusting!

Got into the sea half waist and had fun with the kids. I was known as Uncle Richie by the kids.  They just loved the cameras. Each time I took the camera out they would all crowd infront of me. One thing I learned not to do is to count 1-2-3 as they kept moving towards the camera until I could never get a decent shot! I witness how they showered. There was only 2 wells in that area and little kids (and adults) would surround that well and shower together. You could never clean urself properly as the you had to wear something on while showering in public. I witness a lot of mothers there with young toddlers. They were all breast feeding their kids and each time I accidentally saw them revealing their source of milk, I just had to turn away in awkwardness. A lot of the kids had bloated bellies. I understand that the reason of such is because they have worms in their tummies, originally coming from the sand that they walk on. Hence we were instructed to wear closed footwear.

Today was just an amazing day for me as I was able to witness so many people getting baptised ! You definitely witness the hunger and obedicnce of the people here for and to God.

ps: I ate Balut today and I eventually gave up half way cause I started to feel sick thinking about the embryo I was eating....

hehehe....

Missing you dear...

Baguio Day 4

Today wasn't a regular Sunday that I experienced normally in New Zealand.

It started off really early at 7.30am where we headed out to a house where people met up. It wasn't your typical "normal" church that you would expect. People who attended church today was approximately 20 people. Not bad for a small house.

They greeted us with a welcome song, followed by an introduction of the team and individual member. I personally remembered what Pastor Duane said about me. He told the girls in the church to be careful because I had beautiful eyes ( a small girl told me that a during day 1 of the trip ) He said that I had a girl friend overseas so I am basically taken LOL. He also said that I was really quiet before. After that we were all given flowers that were handpicked from their farm.

Pastor Alfred shared a message about faith today. The service ended with the team going out to pray for the people individually. There was this girl whom I prayed for and she started weeping and weeping. I don't know what was going on inside her but perhaps God was working inside her. Another girl that I was prayed for (btw, I did not intentionally pick girls...just that the guys I prayed for were quite stiff and did not respond as much as the girls did) was the daughter of Pastor Arnold, the local pastor. Before I went over to her, I asked the holy spirit if there was anything I could pray for the people here. I looked around and when I saw her I felt that God was going to use her to be a leader and send her to places far beyond Barguio. I wasn't sure if it was just me or God speaking through me. But after wrestling with myself, I went over to her and told her what I sensed. I laid hands and prayed for her and she started weeping. Inside me, I hope that I got this right...

We had lunch there and I joined the youth for their prayer meeting. It was all in Tagalok but I just pretended that I understand everything that they said. They were mostly very shy! (and I thought I was shy)  I closed in prayer for the youth and then we headed out to the next home church an hours drive away.

In this church, me and Joel and Pastor Duane and his wife took care of the kids with some locals, while pastor Alfred preached to the adults. Joel shared for the kids, and I thought it was pretty deep relatively for the kids. Anyhow it went well with some help from Pastor Duane and Auntie Jennie. I played with the kids after while waiting for Pastor Alfred to finish. He preached a little long so it ended a little later than usual. However I really enjoyed playing with the kids. They were so adorable. One particular kid I remembered kept running to me to ask me to carry her and give her a 'vibrating' hug. I like her really much and wished I could bring her home. There was another boy who lost his 3 sisters (I don't know how cause he didn't want to tell me) who looked very sad. After playing some random one on one boy games with him and teaching him some of my limited guitar chords, he started to smile and somehow I felt that we connected.

There was just so much need in Baguio and I'm just blessed to be able to contribute a little today.

Baguio Day 3

Today was an early start. I woke up at 6.00 am for some random reason. So I continued preparing to share with the kids. We went to Itogon which was 1.5 hours away from Baguio city.

The placed we went to was deep inside some rural area. They were really poor and even had to pay rent for the house they were living in. The house we went to cost them 5000 pesos for 5 years which was approximately $NZD120 for 5 years ! It was small and there were no proper beds for the kids and adults to sleep in, yet they were quite content with the things they had.

The Itogon kids were the opposite from the kids we ministered to in Agoo. They were so shy! Yet at the same time they were very well behaved and so adorable. I shared about Peter and Jesus walking on water. Using my rusty story telling skills that I obtained when I was in primary school I shared the story and juicing it up a little bit. I tried to get the kids to engage with me, but the response was little. But by the end of the Kid's church they felt more comfortable and responded a bit. I got Pastor Dwayne to act as Jesus and his son, Joseph to act as Peter.

While we were praying for each kid individually, there were a few kids that started weeping. Auntie Jennie said that it's not often that these kid response emotionally. But there was this particular girl that I was observing. Her name was Joy Joy. She was so sad. She did not respond to my stories and things I asked them to do. Even when I gave out gifts to the kids, she would go and hide at a corner by herself.  Speaking of giving out gifts, these kids are the most behaved kids i have ever seen! When they received more marbles then they thought they should get, they equally split it among themself!

Anyway, back to Joy Joy. I tried my best to be friend her. I gave her extra sweets and chocolates. I talked to her and played with her more than the other kids. I even gave her my personal key chain torch light cause she lived in a very poor house and might find it handy! Finally, she smiled.

While we entertained the kids, the adults had a great time of experiencing God's presence. Pastor Alfred shared about the Holy Spirit. There were people weeping, people laughing, and also people singing songs you don't hear often =)

After that we went house visiting. We split into male and the female group.

In the male's group, we first went to the house where an old man had a stroke. We prayed for him as a team. Next we went to an old lady's house. Pastor Dwayne chucked me into a deep end asking me to share about God's healing powers. I wasn't prepared at all about that! So I started talking whatever I could think of about God's love and healing power. Thank God for a translator. That gave me time to think what to say next. In the next house, Pastor Dwayne asked me to pray for this lady who had eye problem and also pray for this man who couldn't walk. I heard that this man could only walk for a few steps before. But today was the first time he could walk further-- A total of 3 rounds! Praise God.

We had Ice cream on the way home and it was just a good day to be able to be used by God. Even if there were no instantaneous healing. I believed that God will work things out in His way and His time. I believed God has used us to be a vessel for His love and glory, and because of that miracles will unleash in His time and His will.

Baguio Day 2

The morning started off with shopping which was "shiok"! We shopped at the SM mall and had a tour around different places....(photos to be uploaded soon)

Today we went to Agoo which was approximately an hour's drive away.

In the evening, we went to a house in Agoo where we had a leadership meeting there. There were approximately 10-15 adults there. We worshiped and then had pastor alfred share about freedom from bondages. It was a good sermon and the team then prayed for people there. I personally felt the presence of God in the room with people who hunger so much for him. Even when I spoke in the spirit I started speaking words that I had never spoken before.

Later we prayed for different people. There was a lady in particular who was 17 (she was the intepreter's sister) that I remembered the team praying for. She had problem hearing. We prayed for her. She started weeping. Today she didn't get healed but I believed God was doing something inside her. I don't know when she'll get heal but I know Pastor Dwayne and Auntie Jennie will continue to pray for her and allow God to work in her through us vessels.

The day we finally met

I woke up early on Tuesday.. dressed up and prepared myself to finally meet Richard, after 4 months. Reached the airport by 7 40 and waited till 9 50 before i saw him. Richard said i looked great... and pastor Alfred asked if i lost weight.. LOL

I was really excited... Finally having to meet him after so long.
We didnt do much the whole day.. we basically spent most of the time at home.
Resting and catching up.
Went out for lunch and dinner.
It felt good...
But that only lasted a day. =(

Really wished time would fly a little faster so he'll be flying back from Philippines soon.
At the mean time while he's there.. I pray that he would be a tremendously blessing to the people he comes in contact with. I pray that he would touch many lives through the love of God. I pray that he would be the man God has called him to be.

I'm going to be alone for the next few days... wished i had company.. =(
Come home soon k?
I'm missing you...

Baguio Day 1

So today was my first day in Baguio. It was an interesting trip and I felt bless to be part of it.

The day started off with me waking up at 4am as I was knocked out the previous night at 9pm. It was due to the lack of sleep on the plane and all the traveling.

The morning at 10pm started off with a devotion led by me about running the race for God. We gathered around and just read the word together and discussed about it.

We went to Agoo today as our first trip at 2pm as children finished their schools at 4.30pm. The drive from Baguio to Agoo was long and windy. Approximately 1 hours drive there. We had a total of 8 guys in the car. 2 Philliphine translator in their 20s and the rest of us.

We reached Agoo which was pretty much a fishing village with a lot of children. We started of with worship with mp3 recordings of Tagalok worship songs and very simple worship songs ( draw me close to you) What touched me were the ways how little kids worship. They sang with their eyes closed and also hands lifted high. Of course there were also little kids who were noisy and distracted and generally we were worshiping in a loud and noisy environment with older boys playing basketball at the court next to where we were singing.

Handing out goodies and sweets were a nightmare. They flocked to us and surrounded us. It was really hard handing out sweets to them as there were very little system going on. Anyhow Joel shared today with the help out of our dear translator. Our translator was very engaging and a really good translator. It ended up with Joel asking any kids who wanted to accept Jesus into their hearts and saying the sinner's prayer.

It started to rain then. Night time was the time for the adults. It started off with worship and pastor Alfred led the meeting. It was about bondage and letting God set us free. The team started to pray for these guys who came up for prayer. I personally prayed real loud and in the spirit (knowing that they little understanding of what I was praying). But it was a real step of faith. I started to wept as I felt these bondages that they were experiencing. A elderly lady whom I was praying for held onto my hand as I laid that hand on her shoulders, almost to say "thank you", even though she probably had very little understand of what I speaking.

We ended the day with Jolibee nearby and headed home. Me and Joel took a taxi on the way home as Pastor Dwayne had to send the 2 translator home which were very far away.

I was blessed today.

tomorrow !!!!!!

I wrote a post a few months back with the same title "tomorrow!!!!"

Because it as the same day and it was same feeling I had when I went over to Melbourne to visit Ai.

Can't wait to see her!

2nd time Worship leading in Grace Assembly Auckland

Just got back from GAA. We were helping out with Sunday worship since they only have one worship leader.

Overall, it was a good worship session, though I really hoped that I had better sleep last night. I had a repeated song going over in my mind all through until morning. So I had quite a bad night. Also I dreamed that I failed a paper. It was sooo weird.

Michele was an amazing singer that just requires a little working on her confidence a little. But she was good!
So was Jeanelle. She was a natural but again lots of room for improvement. Eugene always as good on the bass as usual and Jilian on the keys. Adrian was a passionate drummer while Jeremy was a team player lead guitarist. Alan, a good friend and also a hardworking guitarist.

Pastor Alfred was leaving today. Apparently he believes that God is taking him to a different place from GAA. So the church was praying for him today.

 Grace Assembly Auckland.

(Michele and Jeanelle were seating to the left of the pics in pink)

Books

Today I received a parcel for the book I ordered, a book that was recommended by a few friends and mentor before...

Maybe I was impulsive but I bought it anyway for a good price LOL.

Few weeks ago, I also bought a book as shown on the bottom...

I bought it because it was recommended by Archie as I was telling him sometimes it can be quite hard working with certain people with different nature especially in the work force.

ps: Ai's going to kill me cause I haven't finished reading the book she bought for me last time (Dug Down Deep by Joshua Harris) and bought new ones to read. lol

come on....

6 more days!

Single Digit

I am flying home in 1 week's time.... I miss home... where i feel protected.
Though before that, I'm gonna have to face my nightmare...

Lord, help me.....

On a positive note, at least my sis is going to pick me up from LCCT!! *hehe*

Thank you

Dear Lord,

Thank you for providing me with a phone interview in this really good company. I still don't know the outcome of the situation for this job ,but  thank you so much for it! I give glory to Your name.

Thank you for also showing me and confirming with me that you are going to heal Dan Conolly's tinnitus. I have released that word yesterday and expect to see healing miracles happen. 

Thank you for teaching me to discern your voice and Thank you for being the providing God, Jehovah Jireh.

"And My God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus" Phil 4:19

guess wat?

11 more days!!

12 more days!!

It's the second last week of work for me..

soon I'll be officially jobless..

I don't know how long the money I earned can sustain.

Got lots of plans, but very short on money...feel a little bad I can't take my friend coming to Auckland soon to many far places.

No interviews yet, but at the same time I will continue to apply for jobs and hope that My father grants me my desired job.

I got an encouraging email recently and know that my 30+ rejected applications is nothing compared to his 130+ rejected applications. Moral of that story is never give up. Thanks for the email.

Another 12 more days before I get to see a special friend. Can't wait !

Philippines Mission Trip

Getting excited of the trip to Philippines with Alfred, his wife, and Joel. 

I am not sure what is to be expected in that country but I am definitely looking forward to it.

In a preparation state right now and need to be equipped.

Excited!

ps: Balut (boiled fertilised chicken egg, about to hatch) has been on my mind...I'm not sure if I've got what it takes to eat it but maybe I will. 

u can see the embryo inside...omg!

Reading Back

Gosh... my previous post sounds so mushy.... LOL.

Being Loved

Richard said that I should start posting something here... cause it was OUR blog and not his blog. I've been rather laid back when it comes to posting anything here. Well.. it did start off as his blog. =P

I was thinking of something to write here but the only topic i can really think of now is how loved I am by the man- Richard. I seriously cannot think of anything else to write but this. So here goes...I hope those reading this wont get bored of our love stories.. LOL. If you are, don't bother reading any further.

I have made pretty bad decisions before with regards to my past relationships. Being naive and stupid, all my past left in me was hurt and lessons learned. I've never really experienced what it was like to be really loved by a man who loves whole heartedly. Not until I met Richard.

So I'll start off by sharing how we actually met. During my summer break last year, I decided to make a trip to Auckland for a 12 day holiday. Taking advantage of the fact that I had our dear friend- Alan, there. He was kind enough to accommodate me and introduced me to a few of his friends. That's how I got to know Richard.

Throughout my whole 12 days... Besides Alan, I saw Richard on 11 days (except the 1st) of my trip down under. Richard was Alan's substitute tour guide, cause Alan had to work. I went to Auckland with the mind set of enjoying myself.. rewarding myself for all the hard work and effort throughout my semester. What i never would have expected out of the 12 day trip was the find a man who loved me so much- gradually.

A few things happened in Auckland in which i will never forget. (fake rose and knees, card and bracelet, sling shot, coastal walk, sky diving, amazingly awesome people). Most of them involved him being a part of it. I even told my mum that I felt happier in Auckland during that 12 days compared to the whole semester i spent in Melbourne.

We kept in constant contact with each other through MSN, text messeges, SKYPE, Facebook and emails. Until this very day, we have been saying goodnight to each other every night except maybe for a few days when we couldn't. I find it amazing that we still do it till this very day, cause from my past experience, guys don't bother anymore after a few months. But Richard has proven to be different. My feelings for him grew as I got to know him more. It was not love at first sight or a rush of adrenaline. It was a gradual increase in interest and affection.

I love how he is always complementing others and importantly me *LOL*.. something you don't find in most asians. I love how is humble enough to apologize and admit if he made a mistake. I love the say he freely expresses himself. I love how he takes the effort to spend time with me online- even when we seem to run out of topics to talk about. I love how he buys his mum flowers every once in a while. I love how he puts effort into the things he does. I love it when he plays the piano for me. *melts*. I love the fact that he made it a point to talk to my parents and pastor first before asking me to be his girlfriend. Most of all, I love his genuine heart for God.

Richard has loved me like no other man has.. (not including God, Jesus and my parents of course). He is one of a kind. Note that I'm not blinded by love. I know his weaknesses... and Richard knows mine too. But he chose to look pass those weaknesses and flaws, and believe in me. Something I really appreciate.


I have never had a guy keep telling me how beautiful I am to him (even though i know i'm average looking). I have never had a guy record his own singing for me. I have never had a guy fly all the way just to be with me. I have never had a guy striving so hard for a future for us. I have never felt so loved and cherished. I have never experienced all of that till I met Richard.


All I can say is that I am blessed.. sooooo blessed. =)


Thank You Lord for writing my love story in a way that I would have never thought it would happen. Thanks for answering my prayer that You would sweep me off my feet. I would have never thought that I would find a man whom i love so dearly just from a 12 day holiday trip to Auckland. Indeed You do work in ways i cannot foresee. Your plans are indeed better than mine. I love You Lord!!

20 more days

Checked the count down widget on my phone today...

20 days left !

before I go to philliphine and see my girl friend..

wohoo!!

Dan Conolly

You're probably bored of my stories regarding jobs and all...But yea..., it's still moving slowly. Sent out a lot of applications and still just awaiting replies. I might need to move different places from Auckland ...but again , it really depends.

Anyway I'm writing on an incident that happened a few days ago.It happened on a Sunday.

That morning I was serving on 2nd Keys for the main services. After that while I went to grab my bible in the car, I met Ludo whom ended up chatting with me for 10 minutes about his trip to Melbourne. Walking pass the guest lounge, I accidentally saw Dan Conolly who was lying on the couch with his hand on his head (looks like he was in agony of some sort). Trying to be a good Samaritan, i went up and asked him if I could pray for him. He said ok and I just prayed for him ... and also his tinnitus which he has been suffering.(apparently he needed to play natural background sound of the oceans or some sort to sleep)

After praying, he said something that I'll take that as possible prophecy over my life.

He said that each time that I have prayed for him or said things to him regarding things relating to his life... I have always been quite accurate even though I don't really know what was going on. He said that things I was praying for him that day spoke to him and he thought I had a sensitive spirit of discerning stuff ( well, how come I didn't know that ? lol ) He also said that he felt that I could have the possibility of having anointing for healing. In order words, he feels that God's going to use me for discerning his voices and healing people. To me, I always feel excited when people tell me things like that. (though Pastor Alfred told me not to desire it so much cause he thinks its always better to get things straight from God .... long story )

Last night , while I was spending some time with God, while I was praying on the keyboard for Dan Connolly's tinnitus ( lol! ) I had a sorta dreamy kind of image ( u know like u wake up in the middle of a dream ), that God was  spitting to eye of a blind man...then after that I remembered another of those dreamy image where God was spitting to eye of another person..... Perhaps God was going to heal Dan of his hearing. Unsure if this was really of me or of God, I asked Ai after that if I should tell Dan it. She told me there was two consequences of that action... He might be encourage and God will eventually heal him as he seeks harder for the healing of his hearing. Or He might be disappointed if God doesn't heal him hearing that I told him God was going to. Either way, I thought I should keep it to myself and wait until I get another confirmation.

My heart is to learn how to discern His voice... I hope I'm in the path towards being able to do so.

Ai, ALL THE BEST FOR AI EXAMS WHICH IS TOMORROW =D !

Closed Doors

One shut door after another...
Lord, you're leading us somewhere right?

Should i go over to Auckland to further my studies?
hmm......

Rejection

I'm writing this in a disappointed state. My application for an Australian Graduate Visa has been declined and refused... all because Our Great University of Auckland wasn't recognised...it's so lame!

The amount of energy I've put into this application...so that I can be in Australia with Ai, get a good job which pays so much better than New Zealand, and live in a more vibrant country, just seemed to be wasted...

Where are you leading me Father ? I just feel a little depressed today. No jobs, no visa, my contract's at work is ending...and it's only part time as a student when I'm already a graduate ? I remember I wanted this year to be more of a year for traveling and spending more time doing your stuff...And I have done those, traveling and all, helping out at church and all. But it's now end of the year.. I've applied for uncountable number of jobs but they never went well.Most of the good companies that offered graduate positions are now all closed...I just don't like that kind of feeling of uncertainty.

Anyhow, I will still trust in you. I believe you got the best job that suits me. I believe there's a reason why you hooked me up with this part time job in fisher and paykel too. You got great plans and I will be still and know that you're God of my life and you got a future me.You said in your words:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:11-13)"

 I claim on to that promise...
Thanks Father.

The night we pretended to be Gods

Ok ... I know any1 reading might think we're getting ahead of ourself .. but because Ai has been a little down recently, I'm just putting this up to cheer her up (you guys might be going " yea right...you're just using her as an excuse!") None the less , this is just for fun....!!! seriously... I like babies but I'm not going ahead of myself. This is just FOR FUN! hehehe.. just to clarify in case I get chopped into pieces.

So this is Josiah LOL

                 

and Jacinta

                 


ps: For one thing, we got small ears.. so i dunno where the pixie ears came from!! LOL..

ASIAN JASON MRAZ

YO! Just for you laughs!

ps: I look like an egg.

love,

Richard

random

ARg...somehow I got electrostaticed by my car door 3 times today! 

must be a sign that someone is thinking of me lol.

ps: 30 more days....can't wait.

Matthew 2

It's quite freaky and yet amazing how God can speak to us differently each time we read a scripture.

Was reading Matthew 2 today about the birth of Jesus and places that God told Joseph (through dreams) to go during the first few years when Jesus was borned.

It was during the time when Herod was ruling Israel that God told Joseph to flee from Bethlehem to Egypt. Then God spoke to Joseph in a dream, commanding him to go to Egypt. (note it wasn't a supernatural encounter that I always hope for to get myself with God). Eventually Herod was mad and killed all the babies in Bethlehem.

A few years passed and Herod died. God spoke to Joseph again in a dream, asking him to return to Israel. Joseph had to pack his baggage and travel a long distant back. I checked the map of Israel and Egypt and boy, its definitely looks like a good long walk on those camel legs. When he got back, Joseph realised that one of Herod's nasty child, Archelaus is now ruling Judea, the place that Joseph was camping at. Joseph panicked and God warned him in a dream again! telling him to go Galilee, in a little town called Nazareth.

Now this is how the trip looks like for Joseph during that period.

Bethlehem--> Egypt ---> Israel (Judea)-->Israel (Galilee)

My thoughts were, why didn't God just tell Joseph where to go straight away (Galilee) and told him to take this long ass route. For going to Egypt part I understand that nasty Herod was still alive then. But why did God tell him to go to Judea and then only after seeing Herod's son was now in charge, only did God tell him to go to Galilee. Also, why didn't God tell Joseph the whole plan out, instead only giving instructions one step at a time.

I feel that that was God's nature of speaking to Joseph --> one step at a time, in His own timing. Joseph probably didn't wanted to go through all those troubles and anxiety of fleeing from those armies hunting baby Jesus. He was just stuck in that shit. I think sometimes we have no intention of things happening, but when they do we should just follow where the Holy Spirit is navigating us to go and what to do. God can speak to us many ways..like dreams and promptings, visions, (thru a donkey ?)etc. It's an exciting journey. I think God wants to see our obedience and trust in Him where he wants to take us. Because of Joseph's obedience, he as a father provided a safe place for Jesus to live in.

Also, I think that God sometimes don't show us the whole detailed picture... like who you are going to marry, how are you going to get out of this trouble, or which job you are going to have, etc.I think that he wants us to trust in Him, for His guidance, and to learn to hear His voice. If God did really show me every single thing I should do, I think that life would be a like boring set of instructions a recipe  ( oh speaking of recipe, I made Yang Zhou fried rice today too ... my sister thought it was yum ^^  )

Visa update

E-Business Systems

Application Status Application General Skilled Migration -     24/09/2010 Application received - processing commenced    24/09/2010 Application fee received    22/10/2010 Application being processed further Person 1 Wei Chea Tan Date of birth:     Passport No:    24/09/2010 Health requirements outstanding    24/09/2010 Medical examination required    24/09/2010 Chest X-Ray report required    24/09/2010 Chest X-Ray film required    24/09/2010 HIV blood test required I have  been checking my visa process recently and it seemed to have proceeded to the next stage!!

uptown doggie .

I heard that there's a new uptown girl dog in JB !!

can't wait to meet her =D

but that will be like in 2 months time ! 

oh well, anyway,I'm really looking forward to meet the pretty dog.

worried

I'm just worried of you....hope everything goes well for you. hugs

an incidnet at the gym

Yesterday was one of those days that you wonder what would happen if you weren't smart and calm enough to find a way out....lol (full of myself eh?)

Last night at the gym I was working out with Venod, my gym buddy. When it was about 3.50 I quickily went to shower knowing that the gym was going to close and that I had to prepare to go for worship practise soon as it starts at 4.15pm.

I met one of the staff members changing in the gym and asked him if its ok for me to shower now as its almost approaching 4.00.

He said it's fine and asked me to take my time.

Before that I was joking with Venod saying that "man, its nearly 4. I hope I don't get locked up in the gym since its nearly 4pm (closing time) and that just happened to be the case.

I was showering and singing some song when suddenly everything went pitch black. Could feel a cold sweat running down me even though there were water coming down from the shower. My heart skipped a beat knowing of the fear that I was locked in the gym....... and I was.

I learned to appreciate the lights in any toilet from that day on as I struggled to dress up, probably wearing my underwear inside out or something. I also had to feel my way out of the toilet which was just scary. A couple of knocks on my knees and arms but I made it out, just to find another pitch dark environment. All I had was the light on my watch to show the way.

I panicked for a second when I wondered if I brought my phone with me, and relieved when I touched it at the bottom of my bag. I called Venod who was suppose to wait for me before he left. He told me he'l come back for me.

While waiting I searched around to see if i could find an exit. Suddenly, I heard a long high pitch and monotonous sound. I sighed as I realised I triggered the gym's alarm. I jumped onto one of the nearest sofa, putting both palms of my hands to my ears, knowing that I am going to be trapped inside a building with insanely loud alarm.... and it went off.

As I sat there wondering what I'm going to do now, I saw an amazing light! It seemed that a board saying "Jesus" was printed on top of where I was looking at. I rubbed my eyes and realised it said " EXIT" instead. I ran over there and saw an emergency exit sign and quickly turn the knob.

If u have seen those movies where some people who found treasures and that amazing light the shown right out from the chest, that's how it was for me. The evening sun shined straight at me as I open the exit door and I was free!!

Anyway I wrote a complain letter and called the people out today as a concern of the way how they dealt with it. Maybe they'll give me a month's free membership for this incident. LOL.. but it's just one of those days...

first time worship leading

First time worship leading in church...

Not nervous or anything yet. 

But I think that I would definitely need a good rehearsal tomorrow.

Especially for a team I haven't played with or heard playing together before.

Guest speaker coming on sunday to GAA,

and pastor Alfred has step down from church....

I hope GAA will be able to pull it together this Sunday.

The Man Who Loves Food

This guy here loves food.

Best part is he isn't picky about them.

Loves it simple and with LOADS of tomatoes.

Loves pasta.

Loves cheese.

Love beef.

Love this man who loves it simple.

My love...

I am in so love with her...

The more I know more about her, the more I'm attracted to her.

There's so much potential in her for so many awesome things that she can do in the future.

And she's also beautiful LOL! Apparently my sister says she's too good for me lol.

I'm so in love with her.

The 3 Phases of Long Distance Relationship

There are three emotional phases (Protest, Depression and Detachment) that all of long distance lovers goes each time we go apart again.

It is not only me and you and all the people that are living a
Long Distance Relationship, that goes by the Protest, Depression
and Detachment emotional phases, each time we go apart again.

Dr. Gregory Guldner, of the National Institute for Building Long
Distance Relationships, shows in his book that puppies also "feel" the same as us.

According to Dr. Guldner, "Although it's difficult to
apply conclusions from research done on animals to the emotions
described in humans, I've found that the reactions of the pups
are strikingly similar to the reactions of many of those in LDRs."

And he continues, "When the researchers removed the mother dog
from the kennel, the pups began to protest. They cried and ran
around the kennel sometimes for hours and even days. Eventually the
pups stopped protesting, but they began to behave as if they
were depressed. They slept poorly, they lost their appetites, they
stopped playing with toys in the kennel, they lost weight,
and they withdrew from other dogs."

And more, "This pattern of protesting the separation, then
behaving depressed, then developing some emotional distance, seemed
to represent the usual reaction of the pups to separation.
Because these reactions occur very early in the lives of the pups,
there is good reason to believe that the sequence of emotions may
even be programmed to help them survive."

And he states that, " Researchers speculate that the sequence of
separation, protest, depression, and detachment may reflect an
almost automatic protective reflex in many mammals. How much of
this reflex remains in us humans we don't know, but I think it
unlikely that we have managed to escape it entirely. More likely,
the emotional reactions remain, but we have learned to change the
behavior they evoke."
"But the emotional triggers that cause the pups to cry for days,
and us to feel saddened by our partner's departure, remain deeply
ingrained."

And as I told you in previous post, it's a fact that no matter how many
times you go by the experience of separation again and again, nothing
eliminates this three phases. The only thing you can do is to realize their
existence, understand each phase, and take action so you can make
this experience more "soft".

And the advice's I am going to give you, comes from my personal
experience, and from the help of 2 fantastic books, (you can find
their references, at the end of this post) that I did buy, read
and apply, that did in fact help me a lot living again and again
the experience of being apart again and again.


So my advice's to help you in the phase of Protest (when you fight
against the separation in all the ways you can) are:

- Spend the morning or afternoon before your beloved leaves, with
friends. Do something active, to keep your minds "off" of that
moment, and avoid being alone, crying all the time.

- Don't focus on the pain of being apart again, focus on the
pleasure. How bliss you are for loving and be loved. And you will
not be apart forever.

- If it is too hard for you to take your beloved at the departure
place, like to the airport, and stay together as long as possible,
then either say goodbye at your home and let your beloved take a taxi
to the airport, or take your beloved at airport but say goodbye in the
car.


My advice's to help you in the phase of Depression are:

- Let out the emotions, cry, scream. Give permission yourself to be
"depressed"(but not for long time!), but please please please don't
make yourself miserable.

- Surround yourself with friends and family that can give you all
the support you need, and don't be alone at your room crying all
time.

- Go to work, go to gym, set goals like getting in shape, and stay
active. Go to a comedy movie to make you laugh!

- Don't focus on how long your beloved will be away. Take comfort
in the fact that you are not really alone, only separated by space.


My advices to the phase of Detachment are:

- Detach yourself of the "pain" of being apart again, but please
don't detach from your beloved. Keep strong communication with your
beloved. Nowadays we are so lucky to have all the technology to
make staying in touch so easy, like phone, text messaging, email,
faxes, web cams, etc.

- Don't make the separation between you and your beloved an
obstacle, see as an opportunity to grow.


My Dear Lover, face your feelings, understand them and learn to live
with them.
I know it is easier to speak than do, because to me, one of the most
difficult things in a Long Distance Relationship, is this emotional
phases of separation.

But I am learning, and getting better each time, and very soon it
will arrive the time when there will be no more go away again.
And the same will happen to you.

Be strong , you are not ALONE!!!



P.S. this is a COPY AND PASTE from HERE.

reveal it !

Felt a little jealous today when my friend proudly said that he got a job that pays 50k a year (quite high for a graduation pay in Auckland), where he'll also be provided with a car and free phone (unlimited calls). He also said that this was his second attempt to look for a job and his first interview. and he hasn't even graduated yet!
no money
Where are you leading me God? I have been trying hard.. you have shut door after door. I have doubted You a few months before for a very tiny period, but I will trust You to provide for me. I know you will provide me a job that I'm interested in, that can lead me down paths that I won't be able to see at the moment. I believe that you're leading me somewhere...but where Lord? I think it'll be good to reveal it soon LOL...come on papa Jesus, show me the money! (not literally just money, but you know what I mean)

Also, please provide me a place that I'll be able to be with Ai. We might be apart another year if I don't get my working visa especially since my university is not even recognised in the list of recognised universities) You can stretch us, but please not till we're pull apart , ok ? deal ? lol.

I have been patiently waiting. I know things will work according to your time, but please reveal your plans soon Father...

aiyuen or aiyuan ?

Ok, I know that I'll get into deep trouble because of this incident...

Today I locked myself out of the computer at work...All because I was typing my password wrong the whole time!

It had something like "aiYuen" there....but I spelt the original password as "aiYuan". I kept on typing aiYuan wondering what was the reason I couldn't log into my computer. Finally, I got locked out because of too many attempts...sigh.

Hopefully someone can help me unlock it tomorrow.lol.

who's that girl on your phone?

I have never had a picture of a girl on my phone....!

I just realised the 'power' of having a picture of someone you love on your phone! Especially if she looks amazingly stunning in that picture.

It gives me motivation..

It gives me inspiration..

It gives me fuzzy feelings.

It makes me work harder.

It makes me smile.

It makes me look toward the future with anticipation.

It makes me show her off to friends when i'm using my phone.

It reminds me that I'm bless...

Recipes!!!

I've been subscribing to this recipe lady and have been collecting recipes..

hehe

why?

so i'll take the time to learn how to cook when i go over to Auck!!!

i have 31 recipes and counting!!

woohoo

MEATBALLS BAKED IN THE OVEN The easiest way to make a bunch of meatballs is by baking them in the oven.  They come out crispy on the outside and tender on the inside.  This simple meatballs recipe also makes them flavorful without being overpowering with the spices.  Totally Picky-Eater-Friendly.

HERE'S ALL IT TAKES

• 1 pound fresh lean ground beef
• 3 cloves garlic, finely chopped
• 3 tablespoons dried parsley
• 2 tablespoons dried basil
• 1 fresh egg
• 6 tablespoons plain breadcrumbs or crushed soda crackers
• 2 tablespoons freshly grated Parmesan cheese
• 1 teaspoon salt
• 1/2 teaspoon fresh ground pepper

Heat oven to 400ºF.  Generously grease a 12 x 17-inch sheet pan with olive oil or regular cooking oil.

In a mixing bowl, combine the meat with all the ingredients.  Use your clean hand to incorporate all the ingredients well.  Using  a 1-inch cookie dough scooper, scoop out meatballs onto the greased sheet pan. Space about an inch apart.

Bake for 20 minutes until light brown.  Remove quickly from pan with a metal spatula.
They taste great eaten on their own. Of course, I threw mine in a pot of fresh tomato sauce and let them simmer together for about 10 minutes. That made for one AWESOME spaghetti dinner.

CREAMY, CHEESY BROCCOLI RICE RECIPE

This cheesy broccoli and rice recipe was a BIG HIT with the family.  It made a perfect side to a batch of crispy, chicken.  It, also, made a filling vegetarian lunch the next day.  I thought it was even better the next day.

HERE'S ALL IT TAKES
makes 4 to 6 servings

First, fill a large saucepan with water, set to boil over medium-high heat for blanching the broccoli.

Then, get the rice started.

• 1 cup long grain rice
• 1 1/2 tablespoons oil
• 2 garlic cloves, sliced thin
• 2 cups hot water

In a medium saucepan, lightly brown rice and sliced garlic in oil for 3 to 5 minutes on medium heat; constantly stirring.  Add hot water, stir; cover with lid.  Reduce heat to low and cook 12 minutes, or until water is absorbed.
PREHEAT OVEN 400ºF. Grease 8 x 8 x 2-inch pan.
While you're waiting for the rice to absorb the water,
blanch the broccoli.

• 3 small to medium crowns of broccoli, cut into 2 to 3-inch pieces

Blanch 4 minutes in boiling water.  Use a slotted spoon to lift out broccoli to a strainer set over a bowl to drain.  Allow broccoli to cool enough to handle.  Roughly chop into small pieces about 3/4 to 1-inch in size. Transfer to large mixing bowl.
Bring it all together.

• 2 1/2 cups cooked rice from above
• 1 1/2 cup sharp cheddar cheese, grated
• 1 cup Monterrey jack cheese, grated
• 1 (12 ounce) can CARNATION Evaporated Milk
• 2 tablespoons  yellow onion, finely diced
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 1/4 teaspoon fresh ground pepper

Measure out the rice. (You'll have leftover rice.)
In the mixing bowl with the broccoli, add measured rice, 1 cup cheddar, all the jack cheese, evaporated milk, onion, salt and pepper.  Transfer to 8-inch pan.  Top with remaining cheddar.
Bake 20 minutes.

LOADED POTATO POTLUCK FAVORITE

This is the creamiest potato recipe I have ever made. In all my years growing up, watching my Memaw add evaporated milk to her recipes, I never put the two together.  It was the secret ingredient that wasn't really a secret at all.  Memaw knew; she kept several cans of evaporated milk in her pantry year round.

Makes 16 servings.

• 8 medium potatoes (about 2 1/2 to 3 lb. total), peeled and cut into 1-inch chunks
• 1 cup evaporated milk
  
• 1/2 cup sour cream
• 1 teaspoon salt
• 1/2 teaspoon fresh ground pepper
• 2 cups (8-oz. pkg.) shredded cheddar cheese, divided
• 6 slices cooked bacon, crumbled, divided
• Sliced green onions (optional)

Place potatoes in large saucepan.  Cover with water; bring to a boil.  Cook over medium-high heat for 15 to 20 minutes or until tender; drain.
Preheat oven to 350ºF.  Grease 3-quart casserole dish.

Return potatoes to saucepan; add evaporated milk, sour cream, salt and pepper.  Beat with hand held mixer or mash by hand until smooth.  Stir in 1 1/2 cups cheese and half of bacon.  Spoon mixture into prepared casserole dish.

Bake for 20 to 25 minutes or until heated through.  Top with remaining 1/2 cup cheese, remaining bacon and green onions.  Bake for an additional 3 minutes or until cheese is melted. 

COOK'S NOTES

This casserole can be assembled ahead of time and refrigerated.  Cover with foil and bake at 350ºF for 40 to 45 minutes or until heated.  Uncover; top with cheese, bacon and green onions; bake for an additional 3 minutes or until cheese is melted.

 yum yumz... =)

Psalms 1

Dan told me he won't be able to help mefind an engineering job through his recruitment company (because they don't do engineering workers) but told me to read psalms.

I picked up the bible and read chapter 1 and this is what it said..

Oh, the joys of those who do not 

follow the advice of the wicked,

or stand around with sinners,

or join in the mockers.

But they delight in the law of the Lord,

meditating on it day and night.

They are like trees planted along the riverbank,

bearing fruit each season.

Their leaves never wither,

and they prosper in all they do.

ps: note that it is not future tense but present tense.

     I will hold onto His promises!

 

be still

Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know his power

In quietness and trust

Didn't get any interviews today...Felt depressed but I will still trust in God. I kinda lost focus for a short while and thought that I'm screwed. But God has His own plan in His own timing... like what my dad who is a non believer said (can't wait for the day He gets save).

Thank you Ai for your support. I thought of this song and remembered a video I watched of you as a worship leader in your youth fellowship in RC. God has amazing plans for all of us especially for those that trust Him.

Step 1 (after knowing about the visa processing period)

Tomorrow is going to be maybe an exciting day...

First Interview
I am going to go to the Compac Sorting and ask for the electronics assembler position that they're advertising. It's a 2 months contract which is perfect for me as I'll be flying off to Philippines for a mission trip after that period. I'll be working from Monday to Thursday which mean that I'll be earning more. I'll be learning something different since it'll be a different technology.

Second Interview
I am going to Newwindow which is a company that develop touch screen monitors. My friend Sean works there so he might be able to find out if there's any position available. If there is I'll be marching up there straight after compac in the afternoon to ask for an interview while I'm there. Just going to be thick face and go door knocking.

Also got to get some certificates certified by the Justice of Peace tomorrow so I can complete my remaining of the my application for my working visa to Australia.

That's my plan tomorrow....Hopefully it goes well.

ps: Got two korean girls who want to learn piano from me LOL. maybe that will be my extra income!

Protections

So today Shannon nearly got into trouble because rascal Mexicon boy. ( refer to her blog for complete description of the incident)

So I went to do some research since apparently Tasers and pepper sprays are banned in Australia(quote Shannon 25/9/10 8.15pm)

Found some little nice 'toys' that perhaps she can bring around LOL.

 

Key chains to stab..ouch!

 

 Electric shoes for the nuts

Self explanatory Scary weapon

 

 

Cute but scary weapon

 

C2 Taser (50000V)

Ring Pepper Spray

Lip Stick Pepper Spray

or perhaps...........

Halo Rocket Launcher

AK47 !!

Just in case these doesn't do the job, I think the following will do it.

Now Ai, don't say I didn't give you any suggestions..... =D

Homebrew Digital Thermometer

So Shannon has been complaining that this blog has been quite quiet...

In response to that, its time to show my off my very first home made digital thermometer I completed last week! LOL.

Decisions again

Feeling confused and maybe anxious a little... just a little.

Today I got my results for my IELTS test. I got an 8 which was above the minimum requirement of 7. Praise Him for this achievement.

Finally having my results, I spent today in my room applying for my working visa to Australia. I was curious how long it would take the process the whole thing, and got a shock when I found some answers that I didn't want to see from the website..click here to see

Apparently it'll take 7 months to get it sorted. Apart from that I have applied for this visa knowing that our famous university of Auckland is not found on the list of recognised universities (super weird!). In other words, after waiting for a few months, there's a chance that I might find out that I didn't get the visa approved because of that issue. If that happens, I was planning to apply to become a New Zealand citizen, but that would take another year. If everything bad happens, I would only be able to go to Australia middle of 2012!

You know, I have fears that I won't be able to see Shannon on a regular basis if I don't go over (i.e I'll only be able to see her beginning of 2011 and probably end of 2011). I'm afraid that we will get burned out having long distant relationship for such a long period of time. So what if I get my visa over in Australia? that might take a while for me to find a job in Melbourne. What if I don't find a job in Melbourne ?

Anyhow, that's another stage that I'll have to deal with soon. But for now I have to make a few important decisions that will affect me and others in the future. Why is my life so 'exciting' at the moment ? lol

Just when I thought now I can now temporary relax and just leave my application to the immigration officers, I now have other things on my mind --> to find a full time job in NZ in case my application is not successful or takes too long. Time is getting real short....

Lazy Bloggers

After a long period of not updating this blog....
I made a conclusion that the bloggers of this blog are just plain LAZY!!
LOL..

or maybe cause there's nothing to blog about.. which is SAD.

Long distant relationship

Long distant relationship is like water....

You only realised that it taste sweeter when you haven't drank it for a while.
But at the same time if you haven't got any of it to drink for a period of time, you'll eventually die of thirst.

Random but that came to me yesterday night.

Grace

I always thought that I'm not bad at being gracious to other people, but not completely.

I might be a little short of showing Grace sometimes...

Grace is my favourite topic, but it's not easy if we don't focus our spiritual eyes to the source of Grace, Christ himself.

Let this be a lesson for me to have more grace in my life in the future.

peace :)

To Confront or not to confront

To Confront or not to confront ?

Got a little disappointed today when I found out that Josh and Pastor Dan was having a meeting with Sam and Emma who would potentially start a new life group.

A few weeks ago, Josh asked for lunch to chat to me about starting a new life group with Emma who is a few years younger than me. I told him that I was keen but would wanna pray about it. He said that's cool and will get back to me soon for a meeting with him and Dan.

To me what disappoints me is not the fact that I got replaced, but the fact that everything was done behind my back without even informing me. Why didn't he even give me a call to let me know how things were going? I even went up to chat to Emma about starting a new life group thing and just to know her a little better. Talked to friends about it too. A little embarrass that now somebody else was elected, and I didn't even know about it! When I text him to ask how the new life group is going, he replied saying that it's going great and sam and emma are now the new leaders and asked me if I wanted join it ><

Anyhow, Josh and Sam are great men and I respect the decision gladly. Even though Shannon asked if it broke my ego and pride (I said a little), I think that it's not about pleasing the leaders (like how the way OCF does it) but it's about the people they are serving. Maybe I need some more polishing up.... much more....

so, to confront him and not to confront?